REACTION or RESPONSE? FOR WOMEN ONLY

I have found that reacting to a spouse's ill-treatment does not work. If a husband is a narcissist, a wife's reactive behavior to something he caused is suddenly flipped. Her reaction becomes his cause. My advice--don't do that. I used to be very reactive. For example, at my wits end many moons ago, I picked up the chain saw in our garage, pulled the cord to start it up, and held it over his beloved Porche while he watched on in horror. I don't advise doing that either. So, what do I suggest when in an emotionally abusive marriage? To tell you the truth, I have no frigging idea. I understand men can be a mirror. Was I cheating? Was I lying? Was I ignoring the children? No, I was never doing any of those things. However, only someone who is damaged is capable of hurting another for so many years. Is the mirror showing me I am damaged? Healing takes place in my mind first. My willingness to understand my own truth and RESPOND accordingly will change the image in the mirror, regardless of whether my husband ever changes or not.

DESTINY: Glitz or Spirituality???

For all of us, our destiny is mapped out in the stars. At the time of my birth, the Jewish celebration of Shuvuot coincided with the Christian holiday of Pentacost. My parents did not know the ancient {Revelation of the 10 Commandments to Moses} as well as the {Sacred Descent of the Holy Spirit after the Crucifixion} were being observed in unity that year. As a result of their ignorance, I lived a carnal life which led me to a like-minded man. However, the moment I gave birth to our first child, something shifted in my consciousness. Our marital struggles began shortly afterwards. In any number of ways, my husband attacked my spiritual explorations. I sought after a more narrow path while he walked an even wider path of money, materialism, and their trappings. Is it my fault or his that he stepped out on me? But the real question is this: Why, after nearly a half century of study, am I capable of being triggered by his glitz? I am angry, jealous he is sharing that life with a wife imposter. I'm having trouble holding on to my Divine Destiny, although I understand this conflict is really a Gateway for me to gain more Wisdom. Oy vey... Human options can be so difficult. Let's talk...L L Cartin -- The Worthless Wife

Maiden Mother Crone--All Disposable Women

The title sounds harsh--sorry. But all ages of women can relate to how men and society dispose of women in one way or another. This opinion of mine can be discussed in the comments below. For now, let's focus on men. IN GENERAL, they are more likely to come and go. How long they stick around is usually up to them. A man cannot know how a maiden changes once she becomes a mother, how she can divide her expansive love equally with husband and child. The man remains the same. A man cannot understand the inner wisdom a crone/grandmother has. Even in old age, the man remains the same. A crone is forever maiden and mother. At this point in her life, she begins to develop self-respect -- SELF LOVE. She has uncovered a GODDESS WITHIN. Are the women of today throwing away such a powerful gift by competing with men--being more like men--seeking revenge on men? Let's talk. L L Cartin -- The Worthess Wife

RHOM -- Endless Fighting

For me, it is stressful watching these women from Real Housewives of Miami, all beautiful and wealthy, suffer so much. In my opinion, each one either consciously or unconsciously wants to see herself better off than the others to have peace. Here's a tidbit from my own life to demonstrate the folly behind that kind of thinking...my legal husband has been "stolen" from me. The lady had an advantage years ago by working as his employee. She used her advantage to position herself as being better off. It has created decades of emotional neglect and struggle for me and my family. HOWEVER, the lady can only TRY to have peace--contentment. Her gratitude is based upon her assumption that she has won--that I am suffering. Let's talk and I will reveal the secrets to my peace gained from these circumstances. L L Cartin --The Worthless Wife

ACIM L 3: Key Word: "Understanding" The Worthless Wife

This lessson is preparing me for something MUCH grander in my life. UNDERSTANDING is not about the thoughts I have of others, both good and bad, but to know what I AM! The past will torture me no more and my future fears will become meaningless. I see it as bathing in Limitless Light. I feel it as being swooned by Divine Love. Let's talk...L L Cartin -- The Worthless Wife

Tarot Key 4 The Emperor

If you have a deck of Tarot -- meditate on Key 4. It represents a window. Are you looking OUT upon the world and being triggered by comparison, jealousy, anger for whatever reasons? The window works both ways. LOOK WITHIN as to why you are being triggered. What FEARS are you being shown--fear of poverty, lack, illness, betrayal, what??? ACIM: "Choose again" to see what you are being shown. Choose SELF LOVE instead, and the world outside will appear brighter. Let's talk...L L Cartin -- The Worthless Wife

New Year's Resolution -- Manifest!

There are many things I wish to manifest in 2024. I want to have another piano to replace the one I lost. I want to have my publisher finally print the two manuscripts he has held for more than two years. I want to have much more in 2024. What about you? BUT...true desire--RIGHT desire is the essence TO BE and not the wish TO HAVE! That is how the LIFE POWER reveals itself. Then...we are capable of manifesting our glorious desires! Let's talk. L L Cartin - The Worthless Wife